With Only Me

Its lonely now
In this place where I sit,
In this place where I live,
An empty space replacing my heart

I miss it you know,
the laughter, the friendship
the comradery, the sharing
the something to look forward to
You see, I never knew it before
the loneliness of a soul, and now
mine is alone....

I wish I hadn't known the past
For I wouldn't hurt so much now
Yet without it, I wouldn't be
who I am, and that is a blessing
thus, come the pain...

And I can't even describe it, that pain
that deep and forever longing,
a longing that I'm afraid,
will never be remedied,
will never again be satisfied
which makes it all the more painful....

I never left you, not even in the worst of days
yet, because you have left me,
I am alone
Alone in my heart, alone in my soul...

These tears cannot be dried
for the years to come will be bleak,
And I rest upon my pillow
Praying for a dream,
that will give me hope,
to walk, with only me....

August 15 2013 © Dawn Michelle, All rights reserved